question.

why do i sign up for things when i know i won't be able to follow through in completing it?

I bought a notebook with the hopes of being able to write my thoughts down. I haven't written in it for weeks.

I join forums, and websites and rarely remember to visit them again.

I start art projects and they sit, hopelessly unfinished and gathering dust.

I say "i'll talk to you later!" When "later" is really months from now.

I say "i'll work on it ms. therapist" when as soon as the words leave my mouth they're forgotten, only to be remembered when i meet them again.

I wish that like computers, we could truly be made-over and released again as a "New and Improved!!" version of our former self, with past problems erased from memory.

However, those memories will only be brought up by skeptics wondering if you're really different.

noirebelle 2.1?

My Hair Smells Like Coconuts

i'm growing out my hair. No Relaxers for a while

21 Days 'til Christmas. I'm hoping it's a good one. the snow is making me happy

I've reflected on what i've done this year and it wasn't much.
Anxiety played a huge part in what i could and couldn't do in 2007.
I really hope that 2008 will be different. I said the same thing in 2006 about '07 and the same about '06 in '05. i feel that because i'm a bit more mature, that i'll actually have my hope come into fruition.

I made a list of "Things I Want to do, Goals I want to Accomplish" I'm aiming to have 100+ things on this list but so far, i'm at 65.

So here are the first 25 things on this list and i'll add more later.

1. Finish School (i want to be a college grad and i need to stick to that)
2. Be Healthy
   
3. Be more positive/optimistic
   
4. Finish learning how to speak Cantonese (i started...)
5. Cook a 5 course dinner (i love to cook but haven't made a "dinner" from start to finish)
6. Learn to swim
7. Knit a sweater (i'll probably have that done by the summer)
8. Go to Niagara Falls w/ mom (just her and i)
9. Stay spiritual
   
10. Get another tattoo (i've mentioned that in a previous post)
11. Learn to play the guitar ( i really really want to do this)
12. Be more giving/philanthropic (i think we all need to be)
13. Go to Vegas
14. Get a dog when financially stable (i want to make sure I have to money to take care of a dog)
15. volunteer (no explanation needed)
16. Go rock-climbing
17. Travel Europe
18. Find career that makes me happy (i know what i want to do but i'm not sure if i'll be happy doing it)
19. Learn another language (which one? idk, Italian, Portuguese, German?)
20. Visit a nudist colony (i've always wanted to :] )
21. Try to stay in touch with old friends
22. Take belly dancing lessons
23. Donate a months salary to charity (why not?)
24. Be kissed in the pouring rain (it's a thought)
25. Meet someone famous
    

when any of these happen i'll be sure to write about it